Weber Lit Log #1, Forgiveness and Rebellion

Living in Gilead and following its strict societal rules will definitely take a toll on anyone living there. We don’t see a lot of talk about mental health throughout the book, and I think this is because they were being brainwashed and don’t want to let ideas of health get into anyone’s head. We do get some insight into how Offred copes with her world. Chapter 23 starts with Offred lying in her bed, contemplating. “This is a reconstruction. All of it is a reconstruction. “ (134) I interpreted this as her talking about the society as a whole, and how the Martha’s influence the girls to think in a certain way. They show them things from the world outside of Gilead to push them into thinking that they are in a better place, doing things the right way. They’ve been trained to believe that intimacy is a crime and that their only purpose as women is to have children. I found it interesting how she cuts herself off in her thoughts and redirects herself. It’s like she’s snapping out of her thoughts. “If I ever get out of here- Let’s stop there. I intend to get out of here.” (134) This quote stuck out to me in this chapter because it reminds me of a phenomenon that we discussed in class, Meta-narration. This is when, in a book or a song, they break the fourth wall, or call their life a story, or sing a song. It’s interesting because she starts on a topic, then interrupts and corrects herself, exactly like how someone would think in the moment. This shocked me because the rest of the book has been her thoughts, but she hasn’t slipped up or had a moment like this before. I also see a little character growth or reflection from her in a sense, she explains an idea that happened earlier in the book. “But if you happen to be a man, sometime in the future, and you’ve made it this far, please remember: you will never be subjected to the temptation or feeling you must forgive, a man, as a woman.” (134) This made me think of when the handmaids listened to Janine’s story about her experience with sexual assault, and they shamed her for it and said it was her fault. She had to apologize for existing in a way, for ‘tempting’ the men. They yell at her and say it’s her fault. But I don’t think this is her feeling sorry; I think it’s her noticing patterns and reflecting on where she is in this society.

“But remember that forgiveness too is a power. To beg for it is a power, and to withhold or bestow it is a power, perhaps the greatest.” (135) Upon reading this, I first wondered if this is her way of being positive about her situation, or just her honest view of things. She’s referencing herself and the handmaids as the ones withholding the power, the power being fertility and birth. Offred mentioned this powerful idea earlier in the book, too; she is trying to find some sense of control in her situation by acknowledging that this society does need her. On the other hand, when she mentions bestowing that power, she’s referring to the commanders and how they have the ultimate power. But also, in general, there is a power struggle that shows up in different ways. I do wonder what specifically she’s referring to when she says that to beg for forgiveness is a power, maybe the ability to reach someone after wronging them, or it’s something about hope. “Maybe none of this is about control.” “Maybe it’s about who can do what to whom and be forgiven for it.” (135) I notice her talking a lot about forgiveness in this chapter, which confuses me. I wonder if she feels like she can forgive the people who put her through all of this, or if she’s talking about forgiving the commanders and the wives. I believe she sees that no one else really wants to conform to the rules they have set up for them, which we saw during the ceremony. I wonder if there’s a specific person she wants to forgive, or if this isn’t about forgiveness, and it’s just her thinking about her place in society. I also think part of her really wants to find hope for herself and is actively looking for a way out.