The Science aspect of this disorder involves psychological and emotional impairment. Recent research has shown that 1.6% of the population has BPD. BPD or EUPD (emotionally unstable personality disorder) is a mental illness defined by deeply enduring patterns of distress, social dysfunction, and self-destructive behaviour. It causes one to be out of control of their own feelings and urges to harm themselves due to the hurt within and a messed brain and past. Symptoms include emotional instability, feelings of emptiness, intense emotions, insecurity, social isolation, compulsive and impulsive behavior, dangerous and self-destructive behavior, and self-harm. Reasons why an individual may have this disorder maybe because of genetics, brain chemical and development problems, and also environmental factors. In terms of brain chemicals, serotonin is a chemical responsible for maintaining mood balance, and a deficit of this can lead to depression. Victims may also have Depression, anxiety, eating disorders, and thoughts of suicide.  It is ever hard for individuals to control their destructive urges due to this disorder altering levels of serotonin of the brain.

This disorder impacts society by influencing all of the medical fields that study mental illness. This mental illness is now becoming more common due to it being a serious mental illness with the chance of someone having it becoming a more higher population percentage. Statistics say women are more prone to have eupd than men by a ratio of 3 to 1. This disorder is simply something that affects humans... the individuals that have this everything they do will be affected by this disorder. As well affects their relationships, with the fear of abandonment and self-doubt. However this disorder has helped society understand the human brain more and people with this mental illness.  

 I myself suffer with this disorder and whilst being such way i’ve never known what was wrong with me, why I’ve felt to have such strong urges to harm myself with unstable emotions, so I’ve learned to grow and understand myself more with this disorder. My thoughts on having this is truly of the unbearable but I’m slowly finding hope and receiving treatment.

A girl named Corinthia, with prissy nature in all that she did, an imaginative mind that’d wished for beautiful impossible things, and a sweet heart that’d worry for everyone else‘s but her own, woke up with this feeling of pain. When all seemed wonderful for her, with a mommy and daddy that were back together, two twin sisters to play with and a ducky that she always held and slept with, no longer seemed wonderful anymore because of this sickness.  

“What’s wrong?” her mother asks.  

“My tummy hurts.”, she groaned.

“Ahww. Okay, just rest some more, and I’ll make you some tea.”

“Hmkay” she replied.

This kind of day she woke up on, became into the rest of the days she woke up on making all worry, to send her to medical attention. Powders were poured into her drinks before drinking, pills were swallowed before eating, and only certain foods were eaten, which made the girl very sad.

It began when I was eleven. It was during the 5th grade when I was sick. I’d had this sickness that made me have trouble eating and digesting my food. I always had this feeling that eating was wrong, which made me not eat normally when I was supposed to. I then became thinner and a bit below the average weight for my age then. I was 72 pounds in the 5th grade, and eating wasn’t my favorite thing.

“Krin you have to go to school. You can’t stay home all day”, my mother says.  

“I don’t know, but maybe I’ll try.”

“Okay, get dressed.”

“Okay.”

I was missing lots of school because of this, or when I did go, I’d always have the school nurse call to be picked up early. Soon I had to be hospitalized. I was diagnosed with a serious intestine issue that made me not be able to eat normally or go to the the bathroom normally, and always feel terrible pain. The pain I felt was this feeling of something choking the lower part of my tummy.

“The ultrasound monitor shows a lot of unwanted stool that’s worsening the  problem, so we’ll have to keep her for at least three days for treatment.”

“What kind of treatment?”, my mother says.

“Well, it's not easy, but when the doctor returns, we’ll show you.”

“It’s simple, but difficult if she can’t handle it. All we’ll do is fill you up with a laxative but it requires this tube down your nostril, so you’ll need to be really still”, says the doctor.   

The feeling of this thick string winding down inside of me happened. I then sat there looking at the ceiling while hearing the flow of liquid come within me. The time I was in the hospital made me scared not only because the reasons of why I was there, but from how I saw other children just like me who were also sick, making me wonder if I were to get better and become well or if I were not to get better. I also wondered about when I could return to school, and I then began to remember some of my friends from school that were worried about me, which made me question “why couldn’t I be healthy like them? Why am I this way?” I just simply questioned reasons for not being normal, realizing I wasn’t like everyone else, and that I was me, sick. Laying with me on my hospital bed was my stuffed duck, named Ducky. I had him ever since my 7th birthday, and seeing him gave me comfort that I would return home and that there wouldn’t be another birthday party but some other kind of celebration for just me.

When I left the hospital, my sisters greeted me home, happy to see I was feeling better, and I started to feel happy too because I was feeling better. At home I was also given gifts of more stuffed animals, cozy pajamas, and get well cards from family. When I returned to school, the same thing happened. Everyone in my class wrote me a huge “happy you’re back” card and my teacher even gave me this huge green and pink stuffed caterpillar. But after feeling temporarily happy, I still wasn’t happy because I still had to recover and become healthy like I once was before. I then felt as if I’d always be this “food freak” person and not eat the things that were my favorite before. These were my first stages of depression.

From this something that makes a clear connection unto the book, The Yellow Birds, is how I was similarly connected to the main character, Burtle. He carried his guilt home from the war and I carried my sadness from my sickness. I soon then grew into a fear of becoming sick again, so I started to avoid people because I started to feel anxious near them. To me they seemed like cluttering crowds of beings filled with germs that could soon trigger a stomach ache later for me. So whenever I’d ride a bus with my Nama or was in public, I was scared. This was similar to Bartle. He tried avoiding other people, simply to rid of his grief and the memory of his actions. I as well, tried to rid of my memory of being sick by avoiding other breathing humans.

As time passed, with my depression I soon noticed that my imagination of beautiful impossible things began to strengthen. I began having these visions of worlds I’ve never seen before. Whenever I’d closed my eyes, I’d find these fading colors, swirling shades of darkness and these mystical beings I couldn’t ever truly explain. So I soon decide to express these things with the use of poetry and artwork. Which helped me release things on my heart, making my spirit feel better. Soon I then slowly began to recover and I could finally love food and the things again as before. Today I’m fully recovered from this Intestine issue but not the scars it left on me. I still have to have a speacial certain kinds of foods to be eaten and I still experience depression and fear of people. I now no longer believe in this “perfect healthy person” that I’d always wished to be but this person “continuously in growth” that’ll one day be all that she’s meant to be, I do believe in.

Sometimes In writing, authors have a way of capturing the reader’s mind and emotions through deep description of each and every moment occurring in the book. They can be descriptive of the setting, where the main character is or where s/he is going, they can be descriptive of the actions/events, what is happening to the character or what will and they can also be descriptive of the kind of person the main character is. In Private the author, Kate Brian, use much description of her character’s surrounding. Her main character, Reed Brennan has been through a series of events through transferring into high school, amidst from struggles of her family. To give readers a clear perfect understanding of what they’re reading the author must write much description of every moment in the book, which will grasps all the book’s feels as along with the reader’s.

From the start, Reed begins to say of her hometown and she discuss in detail the surroundings of herself. She says it in a way that shows feelings in sorrowly boredom way, as if she wanted to be elsewhere wishing that she had better. “Where I come from is gray. The bland, square strip malls. The water in the lake at the center of town. Even the sunlight has a murky quality. We barely get spring and we never get autumn. The leaves fall off the sickly trees early each September before they even have a chance to change, tumbling down on the shingled roofs of the standard- houses, each one exactly the same as the last.” Of this quote, the author uses much detail of describing her hometown. It gave the reader a clear understanding of how her town is. For it said, “Where I come from is gray,” had given the reader a sense that where she lived was moppy and dull. Then she wrote, “Even the sunlight has a murky quality. We barely get spring and we never get autumn,” which is out of the ordinary cause its supposed to happen, so that made the reader feel that since its nature is not normal, then it may be boring because what’s supposed to happen, isn’t happening.

Onward as the reader reads, the author includes more detail of the moment Reed rides to her new glorious high school. “As my dad drove our dented Subaru through the sunny streets Easton, Connecticut, it was all I could do to keep from pressing my nose to the dog-slobbered window. The shops here had colorful cloth awnings and windows that gleamed. The streetlamps were the old-fashioned kind that were electric now, but had once been lit by a guy on a horse toting a pole and flame. Potted plants hung from these lamps, bursting with red bright flowers, still dripping from a recent dousing with a garden. Even the sidewalks were pretty: neat and lined with brick, topped by towering oak trees.” Of this quote, the author is describing just the pathway to Reed’s beloved high school. She has memorized the campus’s map and read everything about the high school itself, so she’s clearly obsessed with it. Then on her way to it she couldn’t help to daze out of her original state and admire the beauty in her surroundings. When in thought of the beauty, “the shops here had colorful cloth awnings”, which gives the reader a sense that she’s comparing her hometown to high school’s city by saying “here” and there it has color, whereas back home there was none. Also by the author describing all things being “pretty” and “neat”, which gives the reader a clear understanding that the pathway is where the rich walketh upon.  

When Reed step foot on the campus she gleamed of joy and awe of the amazement around her but she then also felt as if she were the girl that hadn’t belonged. The girls around her had far more than what she ever could have, such as designer brand luggage, purses, clothing and appearances that were snobby. She then went to the her advisor for her room and schedule. "Her basement office was dark, the walls made of stone and lined by shelves full of dusty leather-bound books. It was lit only by two windows set high in the wall." This quote helps the reader visualize where Reed is going and how the scene is set up gives a better understanding what’s going on because it provides a picture how it would of looked in actual real life. “Her basement office was dark” already starts off with giving the reader a sense that she’s into an office that's going to be where much information of the environment will be mentioned. When she meets her advisor she breaks down the rules and expectations in a “good luck, you’ll need it” tone. “Full of dusty leather-bound books”, shows also that already her advisor has been well adapted to the high school and knows all the do’s and dont’s in a critical form of way.

A story that can truly relate to connecting of how the author can use description the capture the book’s emotion/feelings in from the Russian Sleep Experiment. Of that story it tells of Russian researchers who conducted a study where five prison inmates were placed in a sealed airtight chamber with an experimental gas that tested the effects of prolonged sleep deprivation, for 30 days. “On the ninth day the screaming began. First one subject, then another, was observed running around the chamber, screaming at the top of his lungs for hours on end. Just as disconcerting was the reaction of the other subjects, who began ripping apart the books they'd been given to read, smearing the pages with feces, and plastering them over the mirrored windows so their actions could no longer be observed.” The author  of this story uses visual descriptions of things happened and how the reactions of the character is which establishes the kind of atmosphere or environment for the reader. This affects the reader by the description being in sequence and helping the them visualize each moment occurring, so they feel as if they were the Russian scientists testing the experiment. It also gives them the feels of them being anxious for what’s going to happen next, of the tester’s actions.

Back unto Private, another last example of how the author uses visual details is though Reed’s thoughts has also been said in the sense of smell, to give the reader a not just an emotion of the atmosphere but an experiencal moment of familiar recollection. “Dozen of girls crowded on around the couches and chairs, chatting and laughing. The place was packed and the decibel level was staggering. A thick concoction of perfumes and scented hair products and scented lotions choked the air”. The phrase “dozen of girls crowded on around the couches and chairs, chatting and laughing”, puts the reader in thought that Reed is considered to be alone, without friends watching them the other girls have joy of friendly pleasures. Which also gives the reader an assumption that Reed is antisocial unless spoken to, for she doesn't fit in with the other girls. The author uses the word “staggering”, to clarify that Reed is in astonish of the thick scent of lotions and perfumes were wearing, which puts her down, giving the reader moment of where she is different, unlike the others. For if she were like the others then she’d be used to the scent, but she isn’t.

Wherefore this structure has such an importance to the book because it establishes a knowledge within the reader, which can develop feelings for the main character through the knowing of what's happening as if it were themself in the occurring moments.

Esta es la casa de Albert Einstein! Es muy viejo y está en Mercer County, New Jersey. Tiene un grande jardín, un árbol en frente y agradable flores. En la casa tiene cocina con un estufa eso es tiene un quemador. También hay un el sótano donde Einstein haría conducta ciencia experimentos. Hay diecisiete ventas y uno chimenea. El casa es muy fresco.

1) La casa tiene un grande el jardín.
2) Hay veinte dormitorios y cuarenta-dos ventanas.
3) La casa no tiene el baño… pero un cámara de heces.
4) Hay precioso escaleras.
5) La casa tiene grande espejo en el pasillo, en séptimo piso.
6) Hay no le tele pero baile gatos.
7)  La casa tiene yum comida!

Esto es una foto de Montgomery familia y ellos viven en Mobile, Alabama. Mattie Montgomery es el padre y el cantante. El es conducir cantante para For Today banda. Es muy talentoso. El también un cristiano y predica en las iglesias y los conciertos. La madre de la familia y la esposa de Mattie, es Candice Montgomery y ella mira a los niños siempre. Malakai y Owen son los niños y son hermanos. Ellos son lindos y divertidos. Malakai es un cantante también, en 2035, él ser la conducir cantante para For today banda! Pero para ahora, Mattie canta. Owen es muy cosquilloso. Él risas mucho y bailes mosh. Como una familia, ellos son heavy metal y encanta comer, dormir, y van a lugares... y eso es Montgomery familia!

Corinthia Bell                                                                                  7/2/14

Mi vida en SLA

   Soy Corinthia Bell y tengo catorce años. Mi apodo es krin y pokey. Soy estudiante de ciencia liderazgo academia. Está en filadelfía. Está cerca de escuela es Trader Joes, Arch Street gourmet y un schuylkill río. Mi escuela es super magnífico, inteligente, extraño, diversión y cómico. Hay cinco pisos en SLA solo tres son asado. Tenemos cumputadoras y apoyo prfessores..Tenemos robotics y poesia clubes, que son super diversion. Mi participar en ambos porque yo gustar construir cosas y escritura poemas son mi pasion.

Mi clases es TFI, áglebra, tecnología, consejería, y almurezo. Mi favorito clase es TFI porque nosotras viajes hay desde escula, aprender nuevo cases, comer,  sueño y tener diversión. No me encata álgebra porque diffícul. En la clases hecesitmas la bata de laboratoria, la computudora, el lapiz, la pluma, la mochila y su inteligente.

  Dos professoras en SLA son Sr. kay y srta. Thompson. La srta. Thompson en seña áglebra y el sr. Kay enseña inglés y drama. Sr. Kay super comico, inteligente y diversión. EL donde Germantown en Filadelfía, y canta postelitas y miel crujiente manzanas. Srta. Thompson es amble, guapa, bajo y deportivo. La participite en extremo deporte carreras. Sr.Kay clase es super diversíon y comico y srta. Thompson clase es difícil y comico a veces. Como la profesor Sr. Kay es el super en ser todo que professor pro dría ser y srta. Thompson tipo y siempre la professora deair ¨yo tener trentia siete segundo izquierda de clase”.

  Mi opinión of SLA es que es súper diversión, apoyo, comico, extraño y la mejor escula nunca que hay es en estar. Me gusta SLA porque es tiene un maravilloso comino de apendiz aje que la otro esuelas en Filadelfía. ]

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