Stop Playing with the Gun

How much you need?  Yeah, I got you. It’s gonna be 10 a gram. What you got that for? What are you doing?  Stop playin, put that away. Ard, you can stop playing around with the gun now. What are you talking about? You’re really gonna rob me for like three grams? We grew up together! What the fuck? FINE FINE! Take it, just put the gun down. Yo get that gun out of my face!  What else do you want from me? I don’t have anything else. No weed. No pills. No money.

What’s the problem? You already have everything. Oh you’re mad about your cousin. Did I kill him? Yeah I killed him, so what?  You don’t even know what happened, do you? I get a phone call from him asking for a QP. I knew something was up because he never buys that much. But I still wanted that money, so I tried to sell it. He reached for a gun. I grabbed it and aimed at his neck. I don’t know if he was gonna rob me or kill me. But, I wasn’t gonna find out. My instincts kicked him and he’s dead. You finna kill me over it? I was defending my life. Kill me then. Pull the trigger then.. Or don’t. LOOK… AT ME. I’ve been trappin the past five years and I’m still in the same place. Aint shit get better. And it aint getting better.  I aint never gonna be nothin more than a drug dealer..

Do you really think I’m happy? Look at me when I’m talking to you! I got nothin to live for anymore. You kill me now I can get out of this cold world. If you don’t, I’ll just stay unhappy. I DONT CARE. So make a decision. But we both know you won’t kill me. You’re not man enough for it. You were never enough. You were always MY sidekick. I’m more important than you’ll ever be. If you killed me, you’d get killed. They LOVE me on these streets. If I die, they’re gonna come out make your whole family die. They’ll avenge my death. So what’s it gonna be?

HURRY UP! I don’t got the time for this. You can’t kill me... Without me you’re nothing. YOU.. NEED ME…  When you got arrested, who bailed you out? When you got kicked out, who’s apartment did you stay at? You won't last out here without me. You’re too much of a fuck up. Next time you need help, where you gonna go? You’re gonna come to me because you know I got you.  If I’m not around who’ll be there for you? Look I know you must feel some type of way because Michael is dead. But, it was him or me. What did you want me to do? Just sit there and let him decide my fate? I had a daughter I needed get home to. I’m sorry, but I wasn’t dying at the hands of him. Who would’ve taken care of Eden if I died? Her mom don’t do nothing. I’m all that girl had. THEY TOOK MY DAUGHTER AWAY FROM ME! I can’t live anymore, just kill me already.