Andrew Cheatley Capstone

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Why meditation works for me. Meditation for me is like a type of therapy. Talking to others doesn’t do anything for me. I always have and still address my worries and lifelong questions to myself, not others. It may be a flaw but that’s not for anyone but myself to let it become one. The first time I meditated it actually didn’t work and during this time I was an Atheist and had no beliefs on afterlives or before life. It wasn’t until I saw an article that said if you don’t believe that meditation will work, then it won’t work. You have to believe that meditation will work for its work. When I heard that it actually only made me not believe mediation worked even more. But a few months later with my anger issues at peaks I decided maybe to try once more, in an effort to calm my anger down and for me to not be so quick to anger I sat myself down in a place I saw as safe, made sure I was comfortable and on the floor. Began to breathe in and out for a seven-second duration of each breath in and out, with my eyes closed I began to see my breath cycle as a symbol much like an infinity symbol with one side with breathing in and the other side of the infinity symbol is breathing out. After this I would begin to think about things deep to me and my personal issues I’m working out. Time would feel a lot slower as the last time what felt to me as 20 minutes was actually over 6 hours. Things like that really take me by surprise and impact the way I think when I see it can control the way I perceive time.